Not much happened, I think.
- I joined quite a bunch of events
- Writer's Jam 2024
- Comics and Random Art Battles
- Blind World Collab
- Slowly progressing on the devil comic (as of now, I have 3 pages finished out of 99 D: )
- On a comic related note, I decided to split the supposed 99 page first volume in three. It will be a 300 page first volume instead. The 99 pages I will publish this year is the first third.
I hope me participating in CRAB will help me draw faster and maybe better. Anyway, I've seen some people upload a page of their comic once a week. Should I do that? Nobody really cares (I'm sorry if somebody does, but I haven't really made anything worth caring about yet) about my comics so I could go either uploading a chapter in bulk or just slowly upload the whole thing. Uploading a page a week can make me feel happy and accomplished, but I don't want people to open and close a new tab every page. Maybe I'll just make an art thread about it. Then after I reach certain amount of pages (I'm thinking 10, as per the limits of a non-supporter) I will just upload them in the art portal...
Other (Pointless gripes that I feel compelled to post in the internet for some reason) :
Honestly, I don't I know who else I'm writing this comic for anymore. My family supports me pursuing art, but they don't seem all that enthusiatic about what I do either. They're happy that I'm happy and I appreciate it. Same with my friends. I feel bad for wanting them to care about my comics...
Of course the comics still make me happy, that's why I'm making them. But part of me sometimes wonder what is the point of publishing them if I can just appreciate them in my head? I think I've said it before somewhere that my reason for creating stories is that they might inspire some people. I still believe that, but it doesn't have to be me, right?
What is wrong with me??? I don't really need my works to be popular, I'm just doing this for fun, but I somehow want people looking forward to something that doesn't even promise anything???
Maybe all of the things I said in this section doesn't quite make sense, but it's kind of my point. I am quite lost, but still moving forward despite having no idea of where I'm going.
Maybe in the future, when I manage to finish a comic, I can look back at these posts and remember that I once had my doubts. That I didn't just effortlessly succeed.
(I feel embarrassed talking about this, but at this point in my life, I don't think I have anybody else to talk about this) (I do think it's quite absurd that I'm posting this in public)
[To future me: Comment here if everything turned out alright.]