I don't know how much things happened, but I guess enough happened for me to skip 3 months of updates. As I said in my previous update in July, I joined an OC Tournament.

While participating in the tourney, I also finished my first year of college. I had a very good performance for the most part, even if I failed my first term.

Anyways, I learned a lot about comics while making my entries for the tourney. I said in my July update that I'll be reconsidering my plans, and here I am. To start, I don't know how I'd proceed with certainty. I have a lot of projects in my mind. All of which are too ambitious, more ambitious than I initially thought. I now have an experience of what it's like to make a comic. Though not a professional, I now know how tedious it can really be.

That said, I don't think it's likely for me to make a volume of my planned comics this year. It's possible if I try really hard, but it won't be good for me for many reasons. I don't even know if I want to make them in the first place anymore. I don't know where I'm going with them (or my life really, I'm turning 20 soon and I have no idea what's in store for me in the future). I joined collabs and got a lot of art done, because I know there's an end goal, but for my personal comics I don't think there's a definite goal. I know they have to end one day, but my vision just goes far beyond them. So far that I can't even see it myself.

But I guess all this means is that I'm just blinding myself trying to look into a place that I can't see. If I continue like this, soon I'd be looking at the past regretting about opportunities that I missed because I was too busy dreaming about the future.

While it's difficult for me to accept that my first long running comic won't be as good as I make it to be in my mind, I'm going to make it anyway. I've already made comics. Plus, I get to choose which comic will that first long running comic be. I've got an idea on which one it's going to be, but I'll just save the reveal for later. Probably when I publish the first chapter. It won't be any of the comics that I initially planned on making, since I deem those initial comic concepts to be beyond the scope of what I can currently do. But I'll be working on them for sure once I feel ready.

Anyways, as usual I don't think if this post makes sense. I just hope that things continue to get better in the future. But for now, I'd be taking my time drawing that first chapter of many.

Also, it's been a (fun) year since I made it here in Newgrounds, wow!